Score = Texas - 3, Me - 1
Monday morning my eyes hurt, my head was pounding and my eyes would not stop dripping!
I was glad to go do Meals On Wheels, to serve, it really gets us up and out of whatever it is we are feeling.
But, as I visited cute Richard, who always sings to me, he began singing the words "Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile even though it's breaking..."
I closed my eyes and fought back tears. He sang my life, in that moment, to me, and it opened up the gates again.
In the morning I talked to Molly and was so excited to hear her news. They have a house!!!
I was excited to hear the story, to share in her joy, to look forward with her.
Then we chatted about moving plans.
'I have to hang up now', I said 'I need to go cry'.
I have tried really hard to stay present, to not anticipate how much it will hurt when our friends leave.
I told Molly to share this process with me. Don't keep things from me! I want to go on this journey with them. I know they have desired to get out of here for such a long time.
I want to be a good friend. I don't want to not share in this excitement for and with them because it hurts.
I have agreed with myself that I will honor my feelings when they hit me. I will accept how I feel, let it out and keep going forward. I will be honest.
Monday I went ahead and felt it, and it took me a lot of the day to move forward again.
This is going to stink!
Sure we will stay in contact, yes we still have many friends that we love, but this change will be tough, this change will leave a bit of an empty space, not just for me, but for our whole family.
In fact, on a couple of different occasions each of the kids have broken down a little bit, in anticipation of this coming change.
We have about 10 years of friendship with this family. They have become our family.
I was glad to go do Meals On Wheels, to serve, it really gets us up and out of whatever it is we are feeling.
But, as I visited cute Richard, who always sings to me, he began singing the words "Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile even though it's breaking..."
I closed my eyes and fought back tears. He sang my life, in that moment, to me, and it opened up the gates again.
In the morning I talked to Molly and was so excited to hear her news. They have a house!!!
I was excited to hear the story, to share in her joy, to look forward with her.
Then we chatted about moving plans.
'I have to hang up now', I said 'I need to go cry'.
I have tried really hard to stay present, to not anticipate how much it will hurt when our friends leave.
I told Molly to share this process with me. Don't keep things from me! I want to go on this journey with them. I know they have desired to get out of here for such a long time.
I want to be a good friend. I don't want to not share in this excitement for and with them because it hurts.
I have agreed with myself that I will honor my feelings when they hit me. I will accept how I feel, let it out and keep going forward. I will be honest.
Monday I went ahead and felt it, and it took me a lot of the day to move forward again.
This is going to stink!
Sure we will stay in contact, yes we still have many friends that we love, but this change will be tough, this change will leave a bit of an empty space, not just for me, but for our whole family.
In fact, on a couple of different occasions each of the kids have broken down a little bit, in anticipation of this coming change.
We have about 10 years of friendship with this family. They have become our family.
I have lost some really great friends to Texas!
Marci...
Damita...
Now Molly...
There is a part of me that is just sad that so many of the people I love leave!!!
I'm not completely and totally against TX. I think she was trying to make peace with me, after all she recently sent me this fabulous lady and her cute family.
... of course she and her family are building a house, so they will be moving away, but, for now I have her!
I sent my cute man a text saying that I couldn't stop crying!
He reminded me that I always have him... so reassuring.
He is my constant. He'll never leave me for Texas!
He loved me better... and brought me ice cream, which I got to eat after we chased the raccoon out of our garage. Crazy story!
It hurts when people that we love leave, because we love them!
I'm ok knowing this change will be painful, that means that I have loved.
On the other side of my pain, far surpassing the hurt, is the joy I have felt with this friendship.
I'd rather love and lose, then never love.
My life, these past 10 years, have been blessed because of these wonderful people in my life!
Even though I hurt, I am blessed.
Even though things will change, I'm glad I had these moments, memories and experiences. They have shaped my life, they have shaped my family's life.
Thank heaven for friendship.